I’ve actually made a tiny obscure bit of something one might call progress if one counts less than two pages in a notebook as such. However this is considering that I’ve restarted the beginning to the GProject at least four times, once having reached several pages of thick paragraphs before realizing how much I hated it already. Beginnings are hard endings are too, in fact there is no real easy part to writing a book let alone many. If the flow of amazing doesn’t happen you’re screwed, terribly, horribly, in a dump of despair made from your own excrements screwed.
I once knew this feeling where the chapters wrote themselves and everything seemed so easy… in middle school. I was working on the LOGProject, turning in chapters for school to my English class. I actually reached chapter five or six before I reached a writing slump. I never really picked it back up and looking over it again, it needs revising, I mean most things written by an eighth graders need revising, but since I had written it my ideas for the story have changed and matured, making the old material almost worthless.
So back to the topic at hand, there’s a problem I’m currently facing besides laziness and writer’s block. The past two weeks I’ve thought very little conceptually about the GProject and more about several other projects I have lined up for the future. Sometimes I wonder if maybe this isn’t the right story to start with. I know what I want, mostly, and I know it will take a long time to get there seeing as how I’ve planned to make this a nine volume saga. Maybe I should start with a shorter series, one flexible in its concept, and perhaps I feel could be better received by readers. I don’t want to pause this project unless I really feel it needs to be, I only just started to take it a little more seriously after all.
I know I haven’t really leaked any info on the GProject to people outside my inner circle, but I already know this is going to take skill and patience to execute correctly. It’s a highly complex form of storytelling that I’ve chosen for portraying this tale. So the major problem is maybe I’m not ready for it yet.
